i'm not strange i'm just a Different

it's about seven months i didn't publish any posts here, and God know that i was about to delete the whole blog.. it's not the important thing now i know but let's go back one year and i'm gonna be a teller now so please be patient and good readers and stand me for just 10 min .

i was 19 years ago, on 15-6-2010.. it was my best day i spent on the earth cause , it  the birth day of one of my best friends ever.. and also.. the closest one who entered my life suddenly and left it also..suddenly.

when the clock announced the time : 12.00 , my laugh announced that i got born not just him..on this day. we celebrated , drew girls and boys playing with others, played some childish games..remembered the few days we knew each others.. remembered the first time to talk .. eventually..i cried..

i believe that everything comes from belief, your inner desires control your percentage of belief..the ghost who destroyed this day was the fact that : easy come easy go..

and it happened.. 

i can't say happy birth day now to you due to being far away of each others, i can't laugh again until crying..i can't stand the fact you aren't here celebrating with me,, but it's the real.. 

Oh God , you gave me alot, you made us away cause it's the best for us.. but!! what about the strange fate !! i saw you then people speak and mentioned your name!! then every time i read something i find your name shinning in front of my eyes..!!

i'm not a romantic girl saying Good bye to the one she loved, as i didn't and you didn't love me.. all what happened was just our destiny..

maybe i'm strange when i say sorry, but that's the fact..i'm very very sorry of my deepest part of my heart for you..

i made a conversation with me, and i realized, you were just a messenger from God to say a message for me.. 

you lightened my way to see something and i did.. you let me feel safe,, full of highly spiritual things which i didn't feel before.. but that doesn't mean i'm in love with you!!..

friendship NOT equal love, love has no meaning, no time, no world,, love comes when the time starting to be meaningless..

love has no fight among brain and heart all the time, love doesn't admit i'm full of drawbacks which need to be replaced , even it was concepts i'm convinced with..

i said last year, i got born BUT now, i say and will say.. i got born everyday not cause of you ...

cause Allah is here with me until the last minute of my life..

i'm sorry my closest one , you were my closest but Allah who is the most closest one of me..

eventually : being a friendly doesn't mean that i'm in love with anyone, it proves cause Allah love me, i'll love in Allah every one :-)..

Happy birth day for you as you complete another year,, and Happy birth day for me as i'm lucky enough having a GOD protecting me always and care for me everyday and every minute..

remember : it's All comes from beliefs..